Merry Christmas!

Just a quick note to say Merry Chirstmas to everyone! We haven't has Christmas at our house yet ( we are doing that the 26th) but I hope everyone has a great holiday season!

Our Soilders and their families...

I want to take a moment to say thank you, thank you to those that serve and thank you to those that are standing in the silent ranks at home. Having a loved one gone on deployment at Christmas time has to be one of the hardest things to deal with, I am lucky, although Mike works for DoD and on a base I don't have to worry about him ever really being gone. Yes, he does work on the holidays- the day it's self and yes, sometimes he does get sent on a strike team in the summer, but never anything like those that are enlisted or those that are called to active duty. I was listening to one of my favorite Christmas song eailer today Bring Him Home Santa and it just crushes and touches my heart all at the same time. There is so much to get done at christmas time, the gifts and wrapping, getting Christmas pictures taken of the family, the shopping and food prep, then all the cooking, keeping the gifts hidden until the big moment on Christmas morning, and the list goes on and on...
But I think we all should take more then just a 'moment' to say thank you.... and May God bring each and everyone home safely.
here is another great song... 
Camouflage and Christmas Lights by Rodney Carrington:
 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6p7HtoYlwY

And tell me WHY again...?

Well here it is 0235 and here I am awake, why you ask...? well I have really no clue, as I AM tired but for some reason to restless to sleep so here I sit at my computer wasting time away. You would think that I would take this time to clean up my messy house but ...nope! I sit here clicking away at the key board with nothing really to say.. just that I need to sleep!
Things on my mind:
I am missing my family and friends right now, with it being so close to Christmas I sit and tend to wonder what my baby sister is up to and where all of my friends are headed for the season. I am not sorry for the move to Texas, it is a step on to the path in life that Mike and I want to be on, but it is a Oh So Hard step to make and take! It's even harder when I see Melessa down in the dumps and crying because she wants to go back to her friends and see family again. It's hard to hear Morgan ask when 'so and so ' is going to come see him again. I know that with each holiday and passing year things will get eaiser and easier but this year they are hard, they are loney, and at times they are sad.
I also tend to sit and think about my Mom at this time of year, even as I type this I have tears. I miss her more at times like this- Christmas, birthdays, ect... just like anyone who has ever lost anyone in life. I wonder what she would have thought of my children, I know that they would have been her whole world, she always talked about how she wanted grandkids- one boy and one girl, funny how I now have both, lol. How she would buy them ponies and all that they could ever want in the world. I wonder what she would think of Mike. Would she like him? respect him? be buddies with him? Mike and Mom are a lot a like in a lot ways. I think she would have liked him, or at least I hope so. I wonder a lot about what she would think of me, how I 'came out' in life. I haven't always made the best choices in life but I have a great life now with a great husband who makes me and his children his whole world. How could I even pray for more in life? I am so very Blessed in life.
But I still cry tears of sorrow when there is no one around with how much I miss her, with how much I wish she was still here with us. I wish she could have seen what an amazing bride my baby sister made this past May. I cry tears for the years with Mom; that Becca didn't get and at times I feel guilty for the years that I did get. For all of the advice that she would of still given me in life, given Becca, given my children. So Merry Christmas Mom, wish you were here.

Well I better sign off and get to bed it's almost 0300 and I need to get up before 0730!

Good Night Y'all....

Out of the frying pan in to the fire!

Well I did it!

I got a blog...

I am a blogger.....

I didn't ever think of myself as a 'blogger' before this point but then here I am...

I hope to keep this blog updated better then I clean house...

HA HA

Man, I Hate cleaning the house!